Ready....Set....Go!!

I'm starting a new journey tomorrow.

Honestly, I'm pretty much scared to death about it.  I have spoken with my kids at work before about the scary parts of success and failure, and here I sit thinking about both of them.  If I'm successful, there's a whole new set of worries/frustrations/concerns that come about, and if I fail, well, you get the point.  To be honest, being successful at this point is more frightening than failing, but I'm not going to let that hold me back for a second.

So, I'm sure you're wondering what this journey is, eh?  Well, I'm starting the HMR diet here at Burton Creek in West Plains.  Basically, for those of you that have no idea what it is, it is a VLCD (very-low calorie diet).  It requires that I eat at least three shakes and two of their pre-prepared/packaged meals daily.  I can eat more, but I have to eat at least that much.  I know, I know, it sounds a bit extreme.  BUT...I have been struggling with this extra weight my entire life, and I always swore that I didn't want to enter my 30's like this.  In fact, I'd really like to find a man worthy of me and have a family before I get too old and I feel like my weight has been holding me back from this for a long time.  I have always prided myself on loving myself as is and not letting my self-esteem be lowered because of others' opinions on me, especially my physical being.  However, there comes a time when I have to admit to myself that I would be A LOT happier with myself if I did something about this.  I can honestly say that the amount of pride and the feeling of accomplishment that I would gain from losing weight alone would be worth more than words can say.  I am walking into this knowing that it is going to be a battle that is going to take every ounce of motivation and strength that I have, but I know that I can fight it.  I've always been a little competitive, a bit of a fighter, and with something laid out in front of me so clearly, I don't really see a way for me to screw it up, as long as I keep my focus on the goal and not the obstacles that might occur while working to achieve it.  

I ask that if you are a close part of my life and have faith, that you say a little prayer for me to stay strong.  I know that I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13) and I know that He will be here with me through the whole journey, through the good and the bad. 

I honestly don't know what I would do with myself if I was skinny....I don't think I know how to be skinny. Haha.  I guess we'll just have to see what happens...are ya with me?

<3

Tara